If you follow me on Twitter, you probably are already aware that this past weekend, I, along with my incredibly fun friend Jeremy, went to see a psychic. Yeah, I know. And even worse, I'm kind of a believer now. I get that it sounds a wee bit TOTALLY CRAZY, but man, did that lady know some shit about me. And I promise you, in true skeptic fashion, I gave up nothing about myself. Nor did Jeremy. And yet, within 15 minutes, Trudy had basically completely dissected my life in a way that I simply cannot explain.
I found the entire experience oddly comforting, for a variety of reasons. Without getting into the details of what Trudy told me about my life, she had a lot of really positive predictions (don't worry, she doled out some negative ones too), but if my life turns out anything like Trudy says it will, I won't be disappointed in where I am going.
But more than just the overall positive vibe Trudy gave me about what is to come, she also gave me some faith and spirituality that I think I have really been seeking lately. According to Trudy, I have met just about everyone I need to meet in my life to get where I need to be going right now. This is a thought that has recently occurred to me several times on my own, but somehow hearing it from a woman that hardly knew me was incredibly reassuring.
Generally speaking, what Trudy told me was that one friend in particular that I have met was exactly the person I needed to help me really start going after my own happiness. And I think she's right, especially as it relates to that person. She told me that there is some greater force at work in my life, putting all these pieces together in a way that I really need right now. There are really three important new people that have come into my world, all with slightly overlapping issues and problems, all four of us creating a pretty amazing Ven diagram of issues. People from the past, people from the WAY FAR past, and people who I just met. And I really need all of them.
I KNOW.
THIS ALL SOUNDS LIKE RIDICULOUS CHEESY HOCUS POCUS.
(There were far more specific predictions/indications, but I'm not sharing those!)
But if you had told me these things a year ago, I would have though you were high. And not that long ago, I would have totally scoffed at Trudy's suggestions.
The force Trudy was suggesting was God (are psychics generally religious? I have no idea?). Without getting too much into my own personal religious beliefs, I will tell you that I am not a religious person. I have not really ever believed that if there is a God, he is guiding my own personal existence in any meaningful way. I'm a generally content person, but in the not so distant past, I felt in many ways disconnected from my friends and well, really ultimately kind of lonely in a way that doesn't necessarily have anything to do with not having friends or having a husband that works a lot or whatever.
But because of these people I met and/or became close with in the past six months, my perspective has really changed. And I've become a considerably more active person in my own life, and made a much bigger effort to seek out my own happiness that is not based on any one person or job or activity. And if that's because of this force, God or otherwise, I welcome it. I've always been a person of faith in one way or another- faith that whatever was supposed to happen, will. I have always sought out meaning in everything, and yes that includes fortune cookies (For much of my college career, our Sunday hangover lunch was at the Cathay House Chinese restaurant in Waco, where every week I forced my friends to say "What does the future hold? ONLY THE COOKIE KNOWS!" prior to opening our cookies). And if that meaning is coming from the guidance of something bigger than I am, that is something I am more willing now than ever to accept.
Because this post hasn't yet taken enough cheesy/dramatic turns, I am now going to relate all of this to Lost. Yes, the TV show. I never watched Lost, but at the suggestion of a new person in my life, I decided to give it a try. And it is oddly exactly what I needed. I know, the show about the smoke monster and the Dharma Initiative and whatever else. But really, Lost is a character study, a show about how you can really become anyone you want to be in a new situation, whether it be a situation you chose, or a situation you were put in by ya know, A PLANE CRASH. And that is something I really want to believe. And if that sounds hokey, well, then so be it.
And finally, I leave with an anecdote to provide some levity in my traditional manner of blogging:
(prior to our visit to Trudy, obvs)
Me: I don't know, Jeremy. Your NAIL LADY'S psychic? Really? Doesn't sound like Trudy has really helped her all that much. She's still doing your nails.
Jeremy: She's not a GOOD LUCK CHARM SLYNNRO. She's a psychic. She's just gonna be like "Bitch, you're gonna be a nail lady all your damn life!"
Have you ever been to a psychic? Would you ever go to a pyschic?
